Friday night we met friends out for an hour or two. Short evening. We stopped in to hear people sing karaoke. We sang "We didn't start the fire" by Billy Joel. Not my idea - hubbs.
As I was singing. A terrible singer mind you. Yes, I'm one of those! But there were back up singers for the melody, so I'm hoping it saved the audience a bit. As we were just going through the motions, be bopping the words out...I could really start sensing the importance of the words and how relevant they are...I've loved this song since I was a kid! I knew it was politically charged. I knew part of the history, but never really looked up any of the history behind the lyrics. Only recently did I learn who the Rosenbergs were. Thanks to 60 minutes.
Of course, the older I get, the more I learn, etc.
With this election and watching the debates, I've been working to figure out who is the best candidate for me. Trying to focus on the issues that are important to me, while looking at what is best for the country as a whole. I do not feel proud to cast a vote for either of these people.
As I read these words aloud, I could feel this innate sense of anger well up..I wasn't merely saying the words, I began to feel them, and by the end of the song when it reads, " I can't take it anymore!"
I yelled it out followed by solid profanity!!
It felt good to get it out!
I do not feel especially proud that I yelled in public over a microphone. That people were subjected to my rant. But I did. And maybe I yelled what everyone is thinking or feeling. I did not begin my evening with frustration and feeling disgruntled. In fact I had a terrific day!
But it was obviously in there, as it came rolling off of my tongue like a freight train without brakes.
I'm left feeling surprised Billy Joel's song didn't have more angst to it. I'm wondering if his producers reigned him in. Those words are so powerful. I feel surprised he wasn't screaming at the top of his lungs during recording. Or maybe he does when he performs. Or perhaps he saves that for himself...when he's in the throes of writing or singing in his own privacy.
Testing our values, and logic, and putting us in boxes with labels that would have each of us with different views or opinions turn on the other like rabid animals. Trying to make us feel inept, bad, corrupt, inferior...as you know this list goes on. Even urging us to feel the end of the world is surely imminent come November 9th.
Really?!?! Yes! It's coming all right...maybe tomorrow, or the next day, or 109 years from now.
Until then I shall continue following the path I'm on. Continue to make a daily effort toward gratitude. I can only hope one day I can make art so powerful it can affect generations to come.
Finally, I'll be more mindful about singing politically charged songs during election season - ha!